When I sat down writing last night, a quote from Steve jobs came to mind as one of the first associations to the passion of the street musicians - "everybody loves music". Little did I know the significance of that association exactly last night on the 5th October 2011. He was right. And he knew why it was essential to stay hungry and to stay foolish. Just like those kids did. And if my days start with those "why"- and "meaning of life"- questions, I know that there is a reason - to make a dent in the universe. RIP Steve Jobs. The Apple logo on the back of my MacBook will always be lit for you!
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Music is Indispensable
The day started with guilt. I have that inexplicable desire to always ask the most brutal questions to myself - like "why is this important to do?" and "what is the meaning of life?" - you know - even before my alarm clock has ran 6:00 am. Which is not even my first alarm for the morning (I told you, it is about "inexplicable" things). This morning was particularly drifty - between reality and illusion - for a couple of hours before the alarm clock could no longer be ignored. And that's where the guilt came in - the "couple of hours" - couple of hours too late (and still before 8:30). It is criminal to feel like a criminal before 8:30 am. Even before 8:30 pm. But after 8:30 - one is free to be who he wants.
Coming out of Rewe after the day which got lost between the cells of the Excel table (still seeing the blank cells and numbers though), I am trying to push aside the thought of another dinner alone (hear that guilt again?), and trying to think of a weekend activity other than more work, I hear guitare music. It wasn't a new marketing strategy from Rewe (you know, the one where they give you something for free so that you reciprocate and buy more). It wasn't an audio-book enhancement ("About a Boy", Nick Hornbey - a current iPod album). It wasn't guilt reminding me I should pick up music again.
It was a group of inspired teens (by my estimation of age) - at the end of the day, they went home, packed their gear, and pick a random spot where they could jam. Not for the cents they thought they might collect (they had brought some snacks which probably cost them more than what they gathered), not for the praise they hoped to get (they had the fire in their soul already), and not for the delight of everyone living on that street (in fact, for the dismay for some of the bewohners there who complained of "noise" - forgive the airquotes). Just when I was getting tired of humanity again, they showed me the world in colors.
Music is part of our life - "everyone loves music", don't they. A guy from the street joined them - an elderly gentleman with a heart full of warmth (and a twinkle that I might boldly attribute to other things in his blood). And he got them, you know - he was there - in the music, around the music, with the music. He called for them. And they came along - they sang, they played for him, the audience communicated - they answered, they clapped, they smiled, they sang along. The tramp then turned to me and said "What would you be without your camera?! You'd still enjoy the music!". And he was right, you know! And I didn't think of guilt anymore.
If you guys are reading this, your spirit (it was not even the music itself - you were great at it, but that's not the most important) - your spirit made my evening! Next time you have a spontaneous desire to perform, let me be there again. Find me on facebook!
"What do your parents do?" - associations game
Do you actually know what your best friends' parents do? I mean for a living? Have you ever asked them and do you keep asking (if you haven't met them yet)? Is it just not something that our generation really cares about?
I was just headed to brush my teeth and I saw in my cupboard two spare tooth-brushes. Now, I know one of them isn't mine (thankfully, I know whose it is and what it's doing there). The other one triggered a chain of associations of the strangest nature. I had acquired it as a spare one when I went to Cologne last winter to visit a very good friend who had just come back from the USA to spend Christmas with her family in Europe - Esther.
I was supposed to travel by train to Cologne, spent a couple of hours there with her and we were then supposed to travel by car back to Bremen. It was winter though - and this normally means "don't make precise plans if travelling" - even the German punctuality is not immune to train delays. And it took me about 2 hours more than planned to reach Cologne. No, wait - I didn't even reach Cologne. A part of the track (thankfully, along the final distance) was unreachable, so we were all unloaded at a local station near Cologne. So a couple of hours later and several attempts to really locate where I was and to communicate that to Esther if she could pick me up, we finally reunited: graciously, she came with the car, gave me the warmest hug, and we were on our way back to her parents' place.
It was already dark outside, cold, snowy, and icy. Travelling back for 4-5 hours to Bremen wasn't really the best of ideas no matter how big and safe the car or its Continental tyres were. So, we went to her parents' place and decided to stay there overnight and travel back the next morning. We knew each other back from the university years when we spent hours and hours playing the piano together, walking around campus, talking about guys and gals, but mostly about music. And in every conversation, we plotted the most ambitious plans for 4-hand-1-piano concerts, playing everything from Chopin's Etudes (transcribed in one shape or another), through Brahms' Hungarian Dances, to our own compositions and interpretations.
We park the car and we start walking towards a closed pharmacy. I wonder, is there some kind of a small side street for which I'd need to hold my breath (literally hold my breath)? But no - Esther pulls the keys from her pocket and gets in the pharmacy. I am delicate (I think) and didn't say "oh, I didn't know your parents ran a pharmacy", did I? I play along, I play cool. I find out, it is not something recent (i.e. I should have known about this).
Where does the tooth-brush come in? Well, it is a pharmacy they run, and I was not prepared to stay overnight because we planned to travel back. So, in the words of Esther "At least with having the pharmacy, a tooth-brush is like the easiest thing to fix you up with."
When we make new friends, our generation no longer judges the social class of the person we meet by their parents' education or working status. Back in the days, one couldn't talk to someone whose parents were not approved of by our parents. Has the complexity of the job market altered so much that it is by now difficult to describe what our parents do ("teacher" is easy but what does it mean to be "market analyst"?). When I thumb through the pictures of my friends, I am having a hard time remembering ever having a conversation with them about their parents' jobs - divorses, culture, real estate, troubles with other children, pride of their children's successes ... - sure. But their job? That's a mystery.
What Jacobs Means to Me
[In the wake of the 10-year anniversary of Jacobs University, my Alma Mater, I did some reminiscing.]
Having come to, back then, International University Bremen, in 2004, I had long hair, some interest in international relations, and exclusive interest in academia. I came to Jacobs because, frankly, its value proposition appealed to me - I.e. They accepted my application and offered me financial support. Little did I know what my next years will bring. And just as well because who would have believed it. It is now 7 years down the road and I've been at Jacobs for more than 6 having moved on only very recently. So, now after I have left and have acquired a more objective view, you ssk me what Jacobs means to me.
Well, Jacobs means a world to me. Not THE world, because Jacobs and it's people are from an entirely different world. We live in our heads, you know - in a bubble - a mass bubble of brains (and the occasional smoking body - which doesn't stay smoking for long - stress plus pizza at 2 in the morning isn't a great combination). We live up there, trying to solve the world issues - we look at them with this curiosity of a child.you know the type of curiosity - the idealistic one - the world needed fixing so, let's just go ahead and fix it. And this is what will make a 10 year anniversary just a small stone on the road - like IUB rocks. End point: outside of the bubble.
Jacobs means to me a dream. No, not because most of the time anyone is simply asleep. Not because the years there passed as quickly as a dream, nor because I dream about them all the time. But because in a dream you can make anything happen. And so can you at Jacobs - that's where everything actually happens. And this is what will make a 10 year anniversary just a small stone on the Jacobs road. Destination: Neverland.
And Jacobs actually means to me a family. Not because whenever We go there, We will meet a person We know, nor because when we go there and We meet someone we don't know We will be able to start a whole-night conversation out of the blue; not because when we go there, We will always have more than 600 beds offering to host us. Jacobs is family because you cannot choose it (and neither can it - that's the magic about the admissions process), because it takes you naked, exposed and vulnerable and you aren't ashamed or scared of it; because it will is like the word "miracle" tattooed on your butt - no one sees it, but you know it is there and it is your protection (besides, it makes you cocky which always helps); because it loves looking through old family albums and showing the world what the children of Jacobs have accomplished. And this is what makes these recordings pages of the perpetually growing album of the Jacobs university offspring. Let's proudly show the world what our family has achieved, paving the road to Neverland.
Saturday Story Lines
I am on my way - with a camera in hand, and a smile on my face. I am on my way to meet my friends. At the usual places that we always go to - the ones we are slaves to - the light of Viertel in Bremen, the small paves streets which look like nothing out of this century, the small houses with the roses growing next to the doors as if they were there from last century, and the music in my ears is that of Ella Fitzgerald (and that's even older than that other century):
... Sweet dreams 'till sunbeams find you,
Sweet dreams that leave all worries behind you.
But in your dreams, whatever they be.
Dream a little dream of me.
The sun is shining through the ghostly morning air being reflected in the water droplets in everyone's hair (especially in that cat's). It is a Saturday for a brunch in the street although there are cars passing by (which is why we simply pull the construction sign at the entrance and we pretend we have no idea why it is there directing the cars to the adjacent street). The bread smells divine - like bread - saciating, smooth, thick, of memories from childhood, of motherly embrace, of baby skin, of butter (the French knew all about that), of fresh fruit and honey. The coffee bubbles in the French press, giving in to the warmth of the water, surrendering its color and flavor.
They turn to each other, oblivious of the group of people around, and they touch - not their hands (which they have to force themselves to hold back) or legs (which they remember are also a seductive tool) but their thoughts - and their eyes. They lock them on the other person as if the croissants with nougat cream on the table don't tempt at all.
And then he takes over - the conversationalist, pointing his finger around with the philosophical gusto of a trouble-maker. It is Saturday morning but a philosopher is always teaching and asking, always asking and teaching - forget about the smelly cheese brötschen he has to prepare for his girlfriend before she hops on to her busy work life (on a Saturday) - he can multitask. Until those three pretty girls show up down the street.
And then they all (they=men) turn their eyes on them, following their moves through the little street as if the tennis match was just about to start and that small green snitch-of-a-ball is about to get hit again. They admire the purity - they don't stare, they don't desire. They simply observe - because it is a Saturday morning - not a time for action.
And then someone new came along - someone who looked like the mysterious animal tamer - who has the secrets ready to be told - but he won't - he just puts up the paper for a show. He seduces the audience like a true story-teller, lowering his voice, making bigger pauses, widening his eyes, and asking questions: "Do you want to know what happened next?"
But he won't tell. We'll have to wait until next time - no matter how much we beg. Story doesn't end - it has organic growth. Day by day, Saturday by Saturday. Weather-dependent of course but only in terms of its location - a smile does not need the sun (the sun needs the smile). And the brothers embraced, "Until next time, bro!"
"Until next time!"